This is my last entry I think and I will have completed my assignment.  This entry will make 21 only the first one was a test to make sure I was doing it right, so that one didnt count.  I have treated my blog like a journal.  I hope I have done the assignment right.  I was hoping to take NA1 during the summer but I dont think I can.  I really need to get another job.  In april I will be done with my job until next season.  I am not sure of what I can do though.  I need to find someone that will work with me about the kids.  I would like to find something soon. We would like to take the kids to disney in september. They are at about the right age for all of them to enjoy the trip.  I hope we can do this vacation atleast once.  I think I did better with my bio 166 than my bio 165 so that is good.  I hope I can keep doing better as I go.  My first english paper was not good but I have gotten alittle better sence then.  I hope to finish both of these classes with good grades, so wish me luck!  I still have to pick my next english as well.  Hope I pick the right one.  I need to go talk to my counslor.  ttyl maybe ae 

Today is 4-9-12.  I had a good Easter with my family.  We went out to eat for Sunday lunch and the kids have had a easter egg hunt at home and with some cousins.  We went to the park and they fished this afternoon.  I had to go to school this morning and take my bio lab test.  I think I did ok but guess I will have to wait and see when the grade is posted.  I am still not sure what I mad on my last test for lecture.  This leaves me with two more chapters to study and one more test on those and then I will have to get ready for the final.  I need to turn my blog in tonight and check to make sure of my points on AOC.  I am down to one more exercise for bio.  I have a page to write about the exersice and cardio health.  I also have two research papers due.  One is for english and the other is for bio.  In english my paper is about church and state, In bio its going to be about heart desease and asthma.  Or at least at this point I thinking on these topics for bio.   Well I need to fix supper and take my daughter to practice.  Until next time. ae

Ok so it is 4-5-12 and I am in english class. I have my topic to my research paper and thesis statemnet.  I just went on nclive to email myself what looks like good articles to read and maybe use as a cite.  I also got my cite list checked and good thing I did, It was not right!  Need to redo my cite page and change some of the cites as well.  I have to go take my bio test right after this class not looking forward to it.  I hope I pass.  My husband picks at me that a 60 is better than a zero!  Guess he is right!  After the test its straight to work until 7 or there after if need be.  Easter is fast coming.  I still have somethings to do to get ready.  I think we are going to go eat somewhere with my mom and maybe one of my brothers.  I think we will have to do colored eggs of course with my kids and do the easter egg hunt.  I may be taking them to the park on monday after school.  Nest week my kids are out of school of the week and I am not so not sure how that is going to work.  I think my to be sister in law ma help me which is really nice because most of the time I have no help. If I cant be with the kids then my husband is with the kids and we get through like that.  So I am sure they will love to go play with cousins and be somewhere different.  ttyl ae

4-4-12 post part 3

            “I looked at Ra’s and knew that all this fear and confusion was over for me.  Live or die I knew who I wanted to be, and “knew that it was better to live out one’s own absurdity than die for that of others, whether for Ra’s or Jack’s.”   The End AE

Ok I think I copyed and pasted all of that right.  Hope you like the story!  I wrote this in english 111. unfortanatly I did the assignment wrong so im using it as a blog, and I redid the assignment right!  I just turned in a paper about a song.  I picked twinkle twinkle little star.  I am excited to get this paper back and see what mr. foster thought about it. I thought it was good.  I cant say about the grammer though.  I am never very good at that.  Well I need to get done with this and move on to studing for bio. I also need to make an appointment with my counsler to get ready for the next semester.  I think i will be at home during the summer my kids will be out of school. then in the fall taking my other english and phsycology or maybe naI because I will not get to do that this summer. Or thats the plan right now never know could change.  ae

4-4-12 post part 2

These men were the type of men you knew you did not cross and get away with it.  Silent, men of few words.  They had rough voices when they talked.  They got that way from smoking cigerattes almost all their life.  With their cowboy hates covering most of their face it was hard to see the dead empty stair when they looked at you.  At times you didn’t even know they where watching you they were so calm and calculating.  They said only what needed to be said and went on about their way.  I had started to become this way myself.   Cold and empty is what it felt like.  I felt as though I turned off some of my emotions only now in this moment I am lessening to them again.  All the fear and hate raged in me like wild horses being let free.  I had become so use to being able to just shut my self down to not thinking past a moment in time.  It was like I was alive again but for what?  What would I do with this new found emotion?

            Sitting here on this horse looking at Ras so tired of running I realized in that moment that I “knowing now who I was and were I was and knowing too that I has no longer to run for or from the Jacks and the Emersons and the Bledsoes and Nortons!”  I felt Hope that I could be who I always wanted to be.  I decided that I should be living my life the way I see fight not through “their confusion, impatience, and refusal to recognize the beautiful absurdity of their American identity and mine….”  What kind of life do I have in all this hate and fear every day?  Year after year not knowing who I am and just living for someone else’s selfish needs and wants.  I was a good man when I was young and still have part of that man inside me.  It has taken me a long time to realize who I am!

4-4-12  Post :  something I wrote for class

Who am I

            Dry dusty air blew up my nose.  The horses panted hard and tried to catch their breath. I looked down at the ground.  The ground was dry like it had not rained in months where we were. The sun bet down on us and even felt as though it was burning our skin.  It was hard to believe it was this hot when it seemed as though the morning had just come. It was a time in America of ridding horses and carrying guns.  Men taking things into there own hands. “I looked at Ras on his horse and at their hand full of guns. 

            I felt uneasy like I was nervous.  I had that feeling of knowing nothing good could come of what was happening.  “I recognized the absurdity of the whole night.”  I just sat there trying to make some kind of sense out what we had done to get where we were.  My mind searching for an answer to what comes next and why am I ridding with this group of outlaws?  I was always looking behind me and wondering what if?  I had an “arrangement of feelings hope and desire, fear and hate that had brought me here still running.”  Why did I follow Ras?  Fear was the answer.  What did I hate? I hated the situation the person I had become and the thing we were doing to others mostly me for having to do this to survive.  Ras and his men where always up to no good just trying anything to make money.  They didn’t care if they had to kill or still to get what ever they

wanted.  I knew if I ever said no to Ra’s it would be the last decision I ever made. At this moment I thought who am I?  I hated this life.  I never wanted to fear someone so much I just did what ever they told me with out question.  Dread that I would never get away from this life! I am tired of running and being told who I am supposed to be.

ok today is april 4th 2012.  I have decided what I will write my english paper about.  My topic is church and state.  My thesis is we should not take God out of government.  I have 5 cites already and I think I have a good start.  I will get into it more and probably add a cite to it or reword my thesis statement.
I have to go to class tomorrow so quess I will see what he says about what I have.  Bio tomorrow too.
Then I have to work.  I think I have all my point on agents of change. I have 375 I think but they will not add my last 30 for blue shirt wed.s until the game is over so that will put me at 405.  :) yay!
I still a ways to go with the blog I think this 14 or something, I need to count agagin.  I also have a writing assignment that can be a couple of my bloggs.  I have one 30 min exercise  left for that bio assignment and then I have to write about it for the last coupe points.  I would like to go to the learning commons for extra credit but I am not sure I will have time.  April is going to be a hard month for me! I hope I can hang in and finish this semester with good grades!!! 

Well today is thursday the 29th of march.  I am at work right now and should be off at 6.  I have had one customer and may have an appointment at 5:30.  I made an 83 on my third paper for english.  I also have 355 points on agents of change.  I have submitted my last code for the blue shirt wed. so that should give me 30 points and if I did two others right they will be 10 points a peace.  If all that clears I think I will have  405 points and I will be done with one of my outside assigments!  ya!!  This is my 14th post I think so still have a few to go.
 Tomorrow I will be watching 10 kids for about an hour and a half or so I think.  After that I will probably have 10 more gray hairs!  I wish it would help me come up with a research paper idea, I am so lost on what to research.  I have a few ideas but it is hard to make a thesis statement and think along the lines of research, or it seems to be for me.  I was thinking about just a bird or something, I like hummingbirds.  I have thought about church and state, soccer which my kids play.  I also thought about nursing, well at this point your guess is as good as mine.  I will let you know.  ttyl ae

well today is 3-22-12.  I had class today like I usually do.  Bio was on chapter 22 and English was about paper number four.  We had to write about a song that ment something to us and the song I picked was Twinkle twinkle little star!  Sounds crazy but it was what I sang to my son when he was born.  Sweet memories!  I made a 39.5 on my lab test out of 50 points and that is the best lab test so far this semester.  I have about half of my bloggs this makes number 13 but the first one was a test to make sure I was doing it right so I really only have about 12 that go towards my 20.  I also have been nocking out my angents of change im around 250 or so on my points and not sure what to do next.  I hope to work on it tomorrow.  I would like to get some of this extra stuff done.   I need to get started on my research paper for english and bio's research paper.  Im still working on that extra credit too.  now I have another paper to fill in for bio before the next lab test.  My head is spinning and I need to start checking things off as done!!   Tonight is my daughters soccer game and tomorrow is work so not alot of time.  In about ten min the kids will be here and we will have to work on their homework so ttyl, ae

Today is 3-21-12 and a wednesday.  I am going to walk at the school and try to do some of my extra credit. Working on my agents of change and bio extra credit. I also need to get signed up for NaI for the summer.  I am already on the reg. but I have to take the dccc program or it doesnt count.  Guess I will live! I need more practice with the blood pressure cuff any way.  I also need more practice with heart rate.  Hope I feel more confident in my self when I get through with this I really want to be able to help people when I get done.  I want to be confident in what I do,  not cocky just believe in myself.!! So today im going to try to get on the list for this summers class.  I have to go to the store and get my can goods and crisis items and take my husband money.  Go to library and fitness center and talk to the school about na I program and get back here before the kids get off the bus so guess i need to get my butt out of here and get started.  Oh and blue shirt wed.  I wore a blue sweater and it almost did not count so I ask my son for one of his t shirts that was blue so i can get those points in agents of change.
ttyl ae

march 2012

Today has been a little off, got up late and kids got up late but they made it to school alittle after 9 so thats ok.  Monday was my husbands birthday and yesturday was my brothers birthday even though he will not talk to me i did try to say happy birthday.  His wife does not like me so guess he is not allowed to talk to me.  I do have some good news though my last english paper my grade was alot better. :)
Also my last two bio test were not to bad either, so ya for me maybe im getting the hang of this a little bit better.  I just hope that i can keep these grades or even get better ones!!!  :)  I just dont want to go backwards!   I am trying to do some bloggs today and some ec for bio and maybe some agents of change before its time to pick my son up at school he has an appointment to day so kindda in a hurry.
I went to the fightness center at school yesturday and walked for 30 min on machine.  It was not to bad, i need to work on cardio and toning my muscles.  I may even try yoga.  I have to do one group class so that may be the one i try,  I will let you know.  ttyl ae

well today is 2/16/2012 and so far an ok week.  on tuesday my family had a good valentines day.  As for school I had a bio test which im still waiting on the grade, hope it was good.  My daughter make me a good luck cat so hope it worked and I also had my clover charm on from my son, we will see.

Then I went to english and not a good class i relized that I wrote a paper wrong, and got back the first paper I wrote for him with a grade of 60! That was bad.  Moving on to today.  I get to go to my two youngest childrens school tonight for an art show and am very excited about that!!!!

Things are about to get slow for me at work so maybe I will have more time and be able to consentrate on my school work more.  I really would like to end this semester feeling good about my grades, and being proud of myself.

On sunday we go two olive garden to remember my grandmother that I lost two years ago!  Love and miss you maw-maw!  We use to run around and have the best time playing at her house when we were young.  As my son says back in the day, or the good ol days!!  ttyl ae

monday!

Well I had lab today.  I need to know where all the muscles are,but I dont!

I have an enlish paper due tomorrow and a lecture test tomorrow in bio!  I have a quiz tonight and work.
Friday was a crazy day.  I had to work like 6 hours and then we got some supper.  By that time I completely forgot about a quiz for biology.  So quiz number 4 is a 0. :(  I didnt realize I forgot til I was back at work the next morning and It dawned on me.  I hated that i missed it, probably could have done better on quiz 4 than on the one i have to take today quiz 5.  quiz 5 is where the muscles are and I think matbe a function.  So Not Ready!!!!!!!


Hope I can hang in and get thru all the school and training. Dont want to quite and dont want to give up, hope I can do this.  Hope im smart enough.

As for english this week we have to write a paper using a paragraph that the teacher gave us.  I am alittle confussed about exac. what to write but i will give it a wirl, we cant make any thing up but we are to I think elaberate on the paragraph given .  I will let you know.?  ae

well im in class and just finished a pop writing.  We had to write about what makes us angry.  I was lost for a min but then something came to mind and I thought I would blogg about it.  I wrote about how in todays world we look so much at what is concitered to be beautiful and not what is important.  I feel like we forced to have an idea of what is good enough and if we dont have those qualities then we are not good enough.  I wrote about how I hope that I can over come what the world is trying to teach us and also help my children too.  I want my children to like who there are and know that they are just who God wanted them to be!  It is about who you are on the inside and not what everyone thinks you should look like on the outside! 

Remember why we are really here on this earth.  What we need to do to protect our future generation from hating themselves because of what rules others make up.  So I leave with this thought, and I write it to myself as much as everyone else,  LOVE WHO YOU ARE!!!  ae

today!?

well so far not so good with bio 166.  I'm not use to getting in the middle grades. I did pretty good in school when i was younger so, its a little hard to see myself getting these kind of grades!  I don't know I am a mom and work at night and on weekends so maybe this is the best I can do right now.  Wish I could do better.!  Kinda down today hope it gets better!

Jeremy my husband got a four wheeler this week.  Its his valentines day gift.  My husband and kids gave me a bracelet.  It has a charm on it from each one of them, I love it!

Well has anyone read my post about God?  Does anyone want to talk about God? I need to remember that I can do all things thru Christ which strengthens me!  I need to remind myself that I am never alone and he is here to help.  Pray with out ceasing.

well guess thats all for now I need to get going on school work so ttyl. ae

ok today is Monday January 30th.  I have lab today.  I looked at my lecture test grade and not so good!! I really need to figure out how to make time to study.  I worked over 60 hours the last two weeks and just didnt have a lot of quit to study.  Need to figure  this out fast!! 

I did get some help with the house work.  My kids straightened the house while I was at work yesturday.  It needed it!!!  I was very happy when I got home!!!

As far as work goes still have a pretty steady flow of customers with their w2s and so for right now I do work everyday and If i can pull a good grade in bio I will be proud of myself.!! 

Back to God,  Jesus and the heavenly father have to be apart of my life he gives me strength and helps me thru my life.  Jesus died for my mistakes!!  I can do all things thru christ which strenghtens me.
Do you have God in your life?  Do you  have any questions about God?  ttyl ae

Ok I went to get my hair done and was talking about school.  I told my hair dresser Ashley i was going to dccc and I was taking bio and english.  I told her about how we have to write three to four pages on each paper.  Well she started laughing at me when I said "I dont know why we have to write three to four pages when I can say what I need to in two!"  lol  she started laughing and said I had to write that  on my blogg, so there we go!   I dont like to have to write three and four page papers when I can say what I need in two or less.

Im sure noone really cares, or maybe some people would agree with me on that! 

On to other thing. Took my bio test 1 today and am pretty sure it was not to good. I took bio 165 the hybrid course last sem and was hoping to make a better grade this sem. in bio.  Hopefully  by the end of this sem. I will be able to say I did!

Do you go to church?  Do you believe in God? Would you like to talk about church or God? If anyone reads this and you want to make a commit please do!  ttyl ae

Ok about today!?  Its wed. the 25th of January. Cold outside but still not cold enough for snow.  Wish we would see at least one pretty snow this winter.  I have to work this evening and take a quiz.  I really need to study ALOT for my first bio 166 test tomorrow!  I feel like I havent been able to put my best foot forward with my school work but i'm hanging in and trying.  Guess If I have to I will just take a class again,  but really hoping that doesn't happen!  Even if slow progress im ok, i guess.  Just as long as I can see my self learning and growing and moving forward I think thats what will make me happy! 

On another note..... If anyone reads this blog, which i dont know why they would or how they know its out there because all this is new to me.    I would ike you to know Jesus if you dont already!  Jesus forgives and loves everyone!  He gave his life for everyone of us to be forgiven or our sins!!!

If anyone is reading this and you want to say anything please do.  :)  ttyl  ae

Well what to write for today?  I went to lab and left a little early to try and get some English and bio reading done.  I'm home now and trying to do English.  I really want to take a nap!  So tired!  I have a paper due tomorrow  and a quiz in bio tonight.  Also have to work tonight. :(  Its good for money but not for homework.  I took my teas test and did OK.  Cant wait till march to know if I get in a nursing program.   I hear getting in to dccc's nursing program is hard to do.

between work and school and a family, I fill lost.  I need to figure out how to make time to study. I also don't wan to loose do things that make me happy,  but have to find time for them.
I don't want to loose my spiritual time either.  My daughter already complains that I have to much to do and why do I go to work every day!?  We got out her calender and circled the day my seasonal job would be over so I would have more time at home.  That seemed to comfort her to some point.  Well I will leave with this thought.  Hope I can get good grades this semester!!!!!!

1/20/2012

Well this morning was crazy!  I had a scheduled test that I paid for at the collage this morning.  My teas test.  I have to take it to get in the nursing program.  Well I was to be at the school at 8:30 (or earlier).  When I got to my kids elementary school I saw cars everywhere and didn't know what was going on!
Well a Bomb threat!  I didn't know what to do. People could leave their kids while the officers searched the school.  They carried the kids out of the school and onto the buses while the officers did what the had to do.  The parents that were dropping off were stopped and told not to let their children go in but they could go around and place them on the buses. 
 I decided to just take mine with me.  I called my husband he meet me at the college so I could take my test.  I only had min till it started and I would have been locked out.

My husband took the kids and went back to the school and talk with the officers and they said all was ok and the kids could go to class.  I took my test! Kids safe!  all good but very crazy!!!!!!

hey!